I Feel Great

If you enjoy this post, please retweet it.

It’s strange I’m publishing this on Friday the 13th in 2020. 🙂 I’ve had a hard life in, let’s say, atypical ways. I rarely talk about this — the details are neither your business nor your burden — and I don’t intend to start now. In fact, as I write this, I’m struggling with whether I should even publish this vaguely written post, but a recent event made me think about it, and hit really hit home.

I went to a restaurant Tuesday night, and a greeter seated me. She politely asked me how things were going, and I instinctively answered, “Great! How are you?” I’ve said that before, but this time I actually meant it. Not being one to hide my emotions well, I think that came through. I don’t lie well. (Yeah, I know. Worst. Lawyer. Ever.)

After answering my follow up question, she pointedly asked me words to the effect of, “What’s so great about it?” I gave her a brief but direct answer. Having kept the poison out of my life (despite recent attempts to reinsert itself) I’ve been able to move forward with a relatively normal life, and actual happiness has covertly snuck up on me for the first time since 5th grade (no shit). At my age, it’s too late for me ever to “arrive,” but I’m clearly on the right path, approaching that place asymptotically. It’s been a long time since I’ve felt this way. I hope I don’t screw it up. 🙂

And with that, I think I’m finally going to end my streak of posting daily. Instead, I’ll post when I have something specific to say. I’m no Cal Ripken, but 214 posts in as many days isn’t a bad run.

If you’re my friend in real life, note well that you’re absolutely part of the reason for this. You know who you are. Thank you.

Follow me on Twitter @gsllc